Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Pouring from an empty cup

I've been going back and forth about whether or not to share this here. And here we are.

You set a table before me / in front of my enemies. / You anoint my head with oil; / my cup overflows." Psalm 23:5

Lately I've been feeling pulled in a lot of directions. Quality, educational play time with my three young children, making time with my husband intentional, reading for my #12in12bookchallenge, helping with my local MOPS group, getting exercise daily, maintaining my home, scheduling time with friends, blogging, and of course, time in prayer. My third pregnancy really wiped me out (who saw that coming ha ha) and over the past few months, I've been feeling more drained than ever.

I keep reading and hearing about how important it is to make time for yourself. To have things that give you energy, center you, and fill you up. As I write this I can almost hear Mrs. Huxtable's voice saying "All I do is give!" I'm not as selfless as that might come off. I just don't think I've been putting my focus or energy in places that are going to fill me up energy-wise, thus leaving me empty and struggling to keep up with each day.



I've prayerfully decided to step back in a few ways and shift my focus around. I'm moving prayer and exercise to the top of my list. Prayer, because He is the one from whom all blessings flow. I am small and weak, but I know that through Christ I can accomplish anything. This is the crux of the little way of holiness, put into words by my beautiful patron, St. Thérèse of Lisieux. I need to start from the inside. Exercise, because when I take the time to get my blood flowing, get my steps in, and drink plenty of water, I will physically have more energy to power me through the day.

Backing off the evening glass of wine will probably help in that arena too, but let's just take this one step at a time.



I'm taking on less responsibility outside of the home. I'm looking for more ways to be efficient with my tasks here, even if that means putting the kids to work. :) Hey, if they can pick up their own toys more often, they'll learn to be better stewards of their gifts, it'll be a lesson in responsibility and respect, and we'll all be less likely to trip over them. I can take an hour or less a week to meal plan, using our local grocery's online delivery service (praise the Lord!!) while at the same time not over-buying and prepping healthy meals for my family, which will make the 4:00 PM hour much less stressful.

I'll be spending less time in front of the TV and more time with activities that are fruitful for me creatively: reading and writing. Browsing pins probably falls into that category too... there are so many beautiful things that are inspiring!



I'm sharing all of this as a way to open my life to all of you dear followers, and as a sort of accountability to stick to my new goals. I won't be leaving blogging behind anytime soon, but it'll be refreshing to take a step back and remember who I am outside of being a mother and a homemaker. (Speaking of, if anyone is looking for an unpaid Domestic Engineering internship, let me know. I know someone who's looking. Spoiler alert: it's me.)

SO, my friends, with a new energy and conviction, I invite you to follow along with me. This time will be for re-prioritizing, finding joy in my passions, and letting the Lord fill my cup!

Oh, fill my cup, let it overflow! Let it overflow with joy!

4 comments:

  1. Get it, girl! I always have to remind myself "you're the only one who can take care of you." And if I don't take care of myself, I can't take care of the babies! ;)

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    1. Exactly. What's the adage, "when mom ain't happy, nobody's happy" or something? Different tone, same message ;)

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  2. Time management can be such a challenge. You are done no a great job and I am so proud of you.

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