Saturday, September 23, 2017

Why blogging and I are breaking up

...or at the very least, becoming just friends.

I'm not really sure how to start this, so I'm just going to jump right in.

I started blogging about 7 years ago. I started it as a creative outlet and a way to catalog my growth. I was single, in need of community, accountability to continue to challenge myself, and a fun hobby.

It wasn't until the last couple of years that I actively started to pursue blogging as maybe something more than a hobby. I wanted to send my ship out from the port, take a risk, and maybe turn it into a successful side business.

However, in the last couple months, I've been feeling gentle tugs on my heart that maybe this isn't for me. It began to feel more like a chore, I was spending more time on my phone, and I was constantly feeling pressure to do or post or style things in a way that would get me more followers. In the meantime, I was slowly starting to lose the joy I found in blogging.

I ignored it for a while. I had already dedicated so much time and effort into my blogs. I've poured my heart out, I've been honest, and vulnerable, and I put myself out there when I really didn't want to... all in the name of blog growth. I did grow, the blog and personally. But as I'm entering a new season of my life where I'm looking for balance and refocus on what really makes my heart sing, blogging has a much smaller place there than I had anticipated.

I love that I've catalogued this much of our lives so far. It's crazy to look back at Single With A Purpose and even early posts here and see how far I have come. But I'm also in a much different place in my life now. And now I have the thoughts, hearts, and privacy of four other wonderful people to look out for.

I've teased here and there about some big changes that are coming this way. Those changes did include a massive re-brand and website overhaul with a Justine In Pearls shop opening. However, it has become clear to me over the last few days that I shouldn't continue to pour so much of myself into a place that doesn't fill me up back.

I'll continue to write once in a while, probably with some house updates, book challenge updates, and what have you. If you're interesting in still following along, please feel free to use the link or subscribe to receive new posts via email. I'd love to still connect via Facebook and Instagram, although I might not be as active as I have been.

I'd like to close in thanking you for following along this far. I could not have come this far without your love, support, and encouragement. I am eternally grateful and I hope to someday thank each and every one of you in person. 

BUT, there will still be a shop opening and I REALLY think you're going to like it... so don't disappear yet!

**I originally wrote this in June. It's finally time to let this chapter end (at least to the extent that it has been around) and start fresh, keeping my current state in life in mind.

I'm finally feeling like I have a little closure. I'm feeling free. Free from feeling like my profile isn't good enough, that I don't have enough likes or followers, free from the pressure to always have something "worth" sharing, free from the pressure to always be plugged in and connected. Maybe now that all of this is out in the open, I could even take a week or two off of the Internet. Maybe? Too much? Probably too much for football season (Go Broncos). We'll see. From here on out, it's up to me.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, for all of your love and support over the last seven years. I You all hold a very dear place in my heart.

1 comment:

  1. Oh my goodness, Justine. I am so proud of you . I know this was not easy for you and I pray the you will be guided in His path. You make me happy and you and your beautiful family make my heart jump for joy.